ConsciousCreation

The anticipation of a “major snow storm”  – the news reports, the cancellations, the checking on firewood, buying bread and TP [ 🙂 ] then the wait as you settle in by the fire with a good book and visions of fluffy white flakes and hot cocoa!!!  And then we get minimal snow and lots of wind and rain….bummer!  Without the snow, I found myself feeling grumpy and a bit guilty –  I should have been doing something – washing clothes, cleaning the place, working on the Palm Sunday program – something.  And yet anything I started to do just got half-done then I moved on to something else and repeated that pattern over again.

As I sit at my computer checking email for the umpteenth time, I realize this ‘unsettledness’  all began when I got up early this morning, dismissed my inner voice telling me that the MRI Lab wasn’t going to be staffed today, and went to the appointment anyway.  Sure enough, they weren’t open for business; however, the receptionist did say they had called me to let me know they had tried unsuccessfully to schedule my MRI with another provider.  Somehow that call did not register on my cell phone – my only phone.  So I headed over to Unity for some cancellation postings and voice mail changes, only to receive a call from the other provider asking why I had missed my MRI appointment (scheduled 30 minutes earlier than my original appointment with the first provider!!!)  Are you following this?

I took a deep breath and thanked the young lady for her call – suggested that they might want to review their communications procedures in the event of emergency closings and said I’d call to make another appointment when I got back into town next week!  I finished up the minimum amount of work at Unity and headed home.  My knee hurting and mind full of angst!

Looking back on the day – that would have been a great time to find a quiet spot and meditate – revisiting the start of the day and resetting!!!   I am learning to be more conscious – this just wasn’t one of those times!  Now three-quarters of the way through the day, I am taking that breath again – reflecting on my unconscious internal reactions and seeing the day anew – releasing the frustration and angst – watching the man outside in the freezing rain walking his dog and being REALLY GLAD  I don’t have a dog today!  Maybe in a month or two!  Now to finish all those half-started projects!!!