ConsciousCreation

This morning as I sat on the couch sipping my coffee, eating my waffles, and watching the squirrels and the geese outside, I found myself reflecting on my frustration this past week about the lack of honey butter at my favorite grocery store. How could they leave that big hole in the cooler where my honey butter should be and why was it taking so long to restock? And then I revisited the rabbit hole I went down – maybe there was a problem with getting honey or there was a recall because of contaminated milk, or maybe the company had decided to stop making it because it wasn’t profitable or the store wasn’t going to carry it anymore or – or – or! You get the idea! My morning just wouldn’t be the same.without honey butter on my waffles. I know, I know it’s a first world problem but come on, waffles without honey butter just don’t satisfy.

And then I took a deep breath and decided I’d just have to find another grocery store. But which one and where was the closest one and then, I paused, took a deep breath and said out loud enough, Toni , enough. I have butter in my refrigerator and honey in the cabinet. l CAN MAKE MY OWN HONEY BUTTER and let go of all this self-imposed angst. I then made some honey butter, put it on a fresh set of waffels and it was great!

How often do I create the angst storm when looking to get answers, sustenance, support from someone or something outside myself rather than opening up to what’s inside, open to new possibilities, new perspectives? And then when ‘it’ doesn’t come, or isn’t exactly, what I envision, I find a rabbit hole to slide into or I put the ‘blame’ on anything but myself.

It happens more times than I’d like to admit, I think, and yet I do believe that it’s not happening nearly as often now as in the past. Thankfully, with each turn around the sun, I have discovered, though self reflection, study, and experience, a deeper understanding of just how powerful I am at creating my world – through my perspective, my thoughts, my feelings, and accepting responsibility for my life. I have also been shown how vast the universe is and the infinite potential available for creation.

As important as that discovery has been, I have also been shown just how interconnected we are with each other and that, while I can make my own honey butter, my daily life relies on a massive network of other beings to bring together all the necessary ingredients. I have learned how important it is that I fulfill my responsibilities with a clear vision of that connection, with heartfelt intention, and gratitude for the whole.

What an amazing world we live in. I am so very grateful!