ConsciousCreation

Travel Log X

When I started this Travel Log, the journey was a physical one, in a car loaded with dogs and suitcases and boxes full of “necessary items”, sharing the driving with my son. Now, the car is unloaded; my son is back home and on his own ‘journey.’ The puppies and I are 99% settled in at my sister’s place and the journey has shifted ~ from physical to emotional at times, mental at times, spiritual at times. Sometimes all three at once!!
Actually, that’s not the best way to articulate the shift either…let me take another crack at it! Having reached our intermediate resting place and stored our stuff, there is space to see and feel what else is moving. As I suggested in an earlier post, my calendar is pretty empty, giving me empty spaces, blocks of unclaimed time. What I realized is that the empty calendar also could create a sense of an empty life ~ if I were so inclined to go there.
Having no major ‘to do’s” or ‘to solve’s’ urgently pressing on my time leaves either an idle mind (and we all know what that is, right?) or big holes through which all kinds of buried thoughts and memories can pop up. Well, I am not okay with the devil’s workshop idea. So, that leaves dealing with all those thoughts and memories that I’m sure my subconscious buried for a good reason.
One by one, the thoughts and memories are popping out ~ little ones, big ones, really old ones, just last week ones, recurring ones, hypothetical ones, angry ones, sad ones. Surprisingly, the happy ones, the cute ones, the humorous one are slower to surface.
Maybe I shouldn’t be surprised at that. There is this thing called negativity-bias ~ that human tendency to Pay more attention to negative stimuli;Remember negative events more vividly and for longer periods than positive ones; React more strongly to negative information, even when positive or neutral information of equal intensity is present. This bias is believed to have evolved as a survival mechanism; early humans needed to be hyper-aware of potential dangers (like a predator or a poisonous berry) to survive, and focusing on threats was more critical than noticing positive things.
(I’m not sure poisonous berries and wild predators are the most significant dangers in my world today; however, I haven’t checked the recall list lately on the berries!)
But i digress! Back to that empty calendar! Alas, it has given me the blocks of time needed to sort through those ‘stuffed’ thoughts and memories and do a truth/relevance test on them. It has been enlightening, both from an emotional and a mental perspective, to realize how much those energy packets weigh and what a relief it is to drop them ~ to watch them evaporate!
The pile of memories and thoughts needing review is not insignificant so it will take awhile to get through it. Thankfully, the Universe is working with me to provide the open space for the task!
And the blessing in all of this is that there really are a huge number of positive thoughts and memories present in my life and that pile continues to grow!
Happy Holidays to all!